Happy New Year

I just got back from visiting my mom and brother. I had a great time connecting with them on a deeper level. When I am visiting I usually have a thousand things on my mind and I am not fully their.

Last night my client paid my two complements. He said it looks as if I'd lost weight and that I look so much more relaxed now. He asked me what had changed. I guess the changes in my life are starting to manifest themselves through my visual appearance. Many people are starting to take notice.

My blood levels are still up and I am feeling great. During December I went to the gym at least once a week. I am going to be increasing that to at least twice a week in January. For some reason, I have a mental block on getting myself to the gym. Not sure what it is....

I just returned from Texas. I attended my brother's 8 week basic training ceremony. It was so good to see him. I really miss him so much at times. Having more time for friends and family was another area I needed to work on. I don't think that I'd seen my family for over a year. Man, where did the time go? We are all so busy.

My brother has the sweetest temperament. He makes me smile. Man I miss him so much. I just cry sometimes when I think about him. I remember when we were younger, I refused to make pancakes for him, mostly because I thought my mom babied him too much. I regret it. But guess what, he now makes the best pancakes in town.

I wish I could turn back time and hug him and kiss him more when he was very little. He was a chubby baby and very cute. He looked like a tiny Barry White. But I can not turn back time. I have to move forward and promise myself that I will connect with him more. Until I slowed down, I never knew how much I really loved and missed my baby brother.

I wish him the best.